I’ve absolutely blown off my blogging for quite a stretch. I’d like to say I’ve been so busy I’ve not had the time but that isn’t so. I’ve not take the time. So what have I been up to?
With the unseasonable winter and spring like temps, our minds have been dreaming about gardens. I’ve been dreaming of getting a farm started. Still pondering over our options. If we start a farm at Norwood we wouldn’t have any mortgage, but we would have the heat and conservative politics to deal with. If we want to start in Vermont, first we have to get jobs there, find a place to live, find a piece of land, blah blah blah. The dream is very much still alive. It’s possible but I’m not sure it’s in the cards.
On the other side of the coin, dad is willing to put electric and a well in Norwood. Basically once that is done we could pull our camper down there and get started. But to get the money to build the farm would require at least one outside job. Which equates to 110 mile drive and far less time to get things done on the farm. Catch-22.
I've got high blood pressure and cholesterol to boot. Have to see a dr. about that next week. If I can get that under control I’m thinking about seeking employment as a OTR truck driver. The money is really good and, depending on the company, it doesn’t matter where you live. True one isn’t home much, but that’s not much different than having to work 80 hrs locally to make the same amount of money.
I think there are 2-3 more car payments before we’re paid off. The only bills that leaves is auto insurance and storage. I think if we can both get to working, and could save the vast majority of what we make for 3-4 years, we could either get well setup or at least make a sizable down payment on something. Of course we’ll be 3-4 years older as well.
Think I’m going to do some soul searching and see what that yields.
I really want to get to VT. I love the political and weather climate there. I know a lot of witchy folks there from VWC and the scenery is gorgeous. On the other hand things do cost a lot more. Jobs are likely harder to find.
I’ve still got some insights to process from some visualizations and rituals I need to process. I’m hoping these will give me some clarity. In all honesty, I need to get them processed. It’s been some time since I had them and If I wait to long I’ll forget their context. Hope to post that soon as well.
I’m currently reading “The Body Sacred”. While this is a book about body image, what I’ve gotten from it so far is more along the line of everyday spiritual practice. A lot of “ah” moments there for me also. Things I already know in my mind but, need to put into practice. Things ,I feel, would make me more balanced.
But back to the body image thing. I guess I’ve got a lot of baggage from being a Southern Baptist, along with inculturation (there’s that word again). While I have no problem with the idea of being nude (I don’t find it “dirty”), I seem to have a problem with the actuality of it. Not that I find it distasteful, just alien. I’ve not been able get past my fear of “biological responses” enough to actually get nude in a public setting yet. I tend toward brief stays in those areas as well because I feel awkward being clothed while everyone else is not, as if they think I’m ogling them. It’s totally irrational and I know it, but fear is powerful.
It’s like anything else. Once you’ve done it initially, the fear subsides and you can just relax. But knowing that makes it no easier.
What a range of subjects for a post eh? From getting started in farming to overcoming fear of nudity.
Have a blessed day!!
